I have a confession to make.
I’ve been a working professional for almost 15 years. That’s a long time for a guy who is 35…and it wasn’t until the last year or so that I realized something about myself: I’m embarrassed.
I’m embarrassed that I haven’t amounted to more. I have a family to support and I feel (like most guys with families I’m sure) that I’ve let them down and not been successful enough for them. There is a part of me that knows that the idea is ludicrous, yet I still have the same thoughts all the time.
If someone asks me what I do for a living, or where I work, I struggle to look them in the eye when I answer. I am able to answer, but I always look away, like I’m hiding or ashamed of something. I don’t really know why it’s there, but it’s there.
Then there’s anxiety. And depression. And the incredible mix of shit that I find myself interacting with each week. The ‘me’ from just a couple years ago would see this and say, “Yeah, but there are so many people who have it way worse than I do. I shouldn’t complain.”
“Should” and “Shouldn’t” are very powerful, and sometimes very bad words. They can be laced with silent judgement. They can keep you locked into habits which may not be constructive. They tell you there are goals you can’t reach.
But “should” and “shouldn’t” can lie, and for me, they often do. So when a coworker, and now a very good friend approached me with an idea (one that I’ve had before), I told myself, “I shouldn’t.”
Maybe you have your own messages of “should” and “shouldn’t” like I do. One of mine was, “I shouldn’t be a writer.”
And in spite of that, as it turns out, I’ve been writing publicly since 2012! As much as I may try to tell myself that I’m not a writer, history suggests otherwise.
So here it is.
I’ve spent a lot of time devoted to this craft, and I really enjoy it. I want to do it more, and I want to do it better. And I want to talk directly to those people who I truly believe do want to hear what I have to say.
But more than that, I want to help you. I want to improve your life, even if it’s with one post, one product, or one short quip in a post.
And do you know what’s cool? For the first time, I think I can. For the first time, I’m pumped about something that I’m working on professionally. And, I’ve been blessed with a friend who has the same goals, who shares in that excitement, and who helped me realize that this is an opportunity that’s worth something.
Hopefully you agree.
I do have a favor to ask, though…we are a brand new website, and one of the most valuable things to a website is traffic. Can you go to our site, and have a look around? Try to find things we need to fix. Maybe read a thing or two, or even become a subscriber—any little thing will make a huge difference.
And while you’re at it—maybe you share this post with a close friend, or someone you know who needs a little encouragement?
I’d love to hear your feedback. Maybe we haven’t spoken in years, or maybe I saw you this past weekend, or maybe we’ve never met…regardless, reach out to me, it would be really great to hear from you.
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